I have to be honest with myself and everyone else. I have really no clue where I am going in life. I have no clear post-grad plans, and I am not as positive that I made the right choice in pursuing a Masters degree immediately after undergrad. I chose what I felt was my best opportunity at the time, but I now feel like I should have paused to do more preparation and searching before diving right in. All of this doubt is putting a damper on my perspective and actions in other areas of my life as well, and that's not fair to myself, my friends or my family.
For several years now I feel like I've lost touch of part of myself, the part that is free-spirited, creative and warm-hearted. It seems to me like I've traded those attributes in for responsibility and the civility. Right now I am thinking that's a pretty crappy trade. While I don't altogether regret this creeping transformation, I desperately want to regain what I seem to have temporarily (at least I hope) lost. For the time being, I guess I'm just riding out this wave to see if I can make it to shore in one piece. But when...if I do make it, I think I need to recoup before jumping on the next big wave.
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